year 3
my attachment ended bout 2 weeks ago.. which also marks the end of acadamic year 3. year 3 was one hell of a roller coaster ride for me. i've always set aside the year to let loose, take a 1 year break away from the country and just enjoy myself, maybe even to find myself.
things didn't really transpired the way i envisioned it to be. true i still went on the trip to canada, but with all the different feelings and emotions. i was actually sad to leave then... the feeling of leaving a loved one behind is really not a good feeling.
then came the ia period .. it was a time of change and adaptaion. it was a time of learning to live with and to live without. overall, the 6 mths went pass quite strangely, as if everything was unreal. but then the period too came to pass
strange, that the year i told myself to take the time off, i found myself lost in the things that i wanted to escape from in the first place. the emotions i was trying to escape had a stranglehold on me.
and now, a new acadamic year is going to begin.. how will it go by? the future is uncertain, i know i'll be pretty caught up in my final year project, probably that'll distract me for awhile. but then again overall i think it'll shape up to be a pretty good one. im optimistic about it, for there's no other way to go thru it.
a final message to her (hope she still reads this blog though): i think i've acted like a stubongz for a long time now. and i guess its time to finally let go, for the good of both of us. i don't want to strain the r/s with all this pressure.. hopefully you'll forgive me for the times i've acted immmaturely and pulled the emo stunt on you. i guess we'll be alrite in time to come, i truly treasure your frenship and hope you think likewise ... still miss you, but it'll do for now.
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napkin man
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12:27 am
