the real world
being in year 4 means that graduation is near. while everyone is excited to graduate and go out there to make money, im fine not graduating that early. looking around i see everyone applying for the top notch jobs, esp those in the banks. would i want to work in the industry where all the money is? sure i do.
however i am not sure if i am cut out for it. does my interest lie in those jobs? what do i actually want to do for the next 40 years of my life? that's the question i have to answer in the next one year and i really don't have time to think of such things.
maybe im just scared of facing whats out there. maybe i've been too comfortable in my sheltered world of being 'paid' to study. i enjoy the friends and the holidays and the chilling. life probably won't be like this (unless i strike the 5 million toto on friday).
for now, im just going to live my life each day waiting for things to happen, it is on auto pilot.. or shall i say, im just a pawn controlled by circumstance. and hopefully if all things don't turn out fine, i'll still have you. but when all things go down this way, will you still be there to hold my hand??
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napkin man
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12:31 am
