looking back i saw nothing but blue in the bluest sky
i know i know, i think like abit late to write my reflections on the past year, but had no time or was too lazy to write the last few days, so here i am, read on only if you are bo liao.
2004 has been a roller coaster year for me, here are the highs:
-baptism
-melbourne trip
-orientation camp
-satisfactory results for sem 1 year 2
praise God for these and much more..
well i shall not list out the lows, but shall instead reflect on the lessons learnt from the lows that i encountered.
i guess the lowest of lows would be the earthquake cum tsunamis that haf taken so many lives and are still doing so even as i type this. i guess it the sad part is that it took an event or disaster of such magnitude to really knock the sense out of us, whether we are keepers of the faith or not. it serves as a reminder to us to not hold on to our petty ways and really realise that the world does not revolve around us and for us. and it came at a time nobody was prepared for, i guess nobody really wanted to end the year on such a low, but it is a good wake up call to those who thought the year had been smooth sailing or even too shitty, it tells us that shittier things can happen, and that we should always try to put our perspective right.
and the thing that most worries me, and im sure all who call themselves children of the one true God is that people are going to use this event to point out a very fact that even stumbles some of us: if God exist and loves the world, how come he let such a thing happened? is he a God of death?? im not one who preaches like i know all, in fact i seldom talk bout such things, but its an issue i guess we all need to address. we who keep the faith have to trust that in He's own time that he will reveal all to us, He's plans and He's purpose, and know that He's loves remain, earthquake or not, tusnami or not. and an answer that we might probably want to use to our non-believing friends might go something like this: cos He knows better than us, and we who believe are in no position to question He's decisions and actions, but do know that He's love trascends all understanding still and that something good will emerge from all. already something good has begun to take shape, the never seen before compassion that the world showed in the wake of the disaster.. i think its really heart warming to read that ordinary people, just drop their lives to go to the aid of those in need.
well i guess that one single event really mask the rest of the downs i was feeling or grappling with in the past year,to take out and review behaviours, actions and relations that haven't been too well satisfactory.
looking ahead, i start of every year telling myself that its going to be my year, whether its true or not it doesnt matter, but lets hope so. hopefully will get to go on exchange and go on new napkin adventures! other than that, nothing much planned, just need to review and fine tune some long standing 'issues' and just let life throw me what it has to offer. have a great year everybody...
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napkin man
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11:31 pm
